4 Hours Past Normal

As I sit and write this my sweet 6 month angel is fast asleep in her crib. You would never know the past few days have been a whirlwind for her. Since she had her sinus infection she has been spitting up a couple times a day. She has never been one to spit up. Ever. I thought it as due to the antibiotics they had her on but now I am not sure since she has been off that medicine for a week.

For the past few days fussy has been her middle name. Every time I leave the room she is just starts crying. This has been very trying for this mama. I have started school and that is time consuming in itself and i am determined to get good grades. I have been staying up wayy past my "bedtime" to spend time with Brian when he gets home from work and getting up early with baby girl. I have spread myself extremely thin. Tonight i almost broke. I am going on 4 hours of sleep and endless amounts of stress.

I cant be the only mom out there who finds herself thinking I am doing this all wrong. Or I could be doing this much better. I kept comparing myself to other moms or my own mom thinking how they would do it. Once baby finally settled I did too. With my bible and some very inspiring blogs. I came to the realization that guess what? I am doing the best I can. I am nowhere near a perfect mom but who is? I know the Lord gave me Lindsey for many reasons. I am to teach her and nurture her but she is really teaching me right now. Teaching me about more about myself, teaching me to lean on Him when all else seems to be failing.

Instead of focusing on what I could do better I need to relax and know that He will lead me as long as I listen. I will make mistakes. Tons. But one look from that precious baby and it is all worth it. The lack of sleep, the stress, everything. She is the best part of every day and always will be.

Mommy loves you so very much baby girl. Please have patience with me for I am new to this whole parenting thing. I promise to always try to do my best and to love you with everything I have.

In the end thats what matters. Trying your best and loving with all you have.

Lately

 who could forget this precious angel

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see" Hebrews 11:1

Faith

"Man does, indeed need a radical change of heart; he needs to begin to hate his sin instead of loving it, and to love God instead of hating him; he needs , in a word, to be reconciled with God. And the place above all others, where this change takes place is at the foot of the cross, when he apprehends something of the hatred of God for sin and his indescribable love for the sinner." by JND Anderson

Bacon Wrapped Jalapeno Poppers

I have been really good with this diet. This side dish or appetizer fits into those categories beautifully! However, it is not overly spicy. The cream cheese and honey play as a wonderful counterpart to the jalapeno's spice.

Bacon Wrapped Jalapeno Poppers

Serves 2 (can be adjusted to easily any amount)

4 Jalapenos cut in half, seeds and membrane removed

4 oz cream cheese (half a small dub)

4 pieces of thin cut bacon, cut in half

Drizzle of Honey

Preheat the oven to 400. I found the easiest way to spread the cream cheese inside the jalapeno is to put it in the corner of a freezer ziploc bag and snip off the ends. Perfect pastry bag as well ;) Drizzle a small amount of honey down the center of the cream cheese. Wrap in bacon and place on a baking dish. Bake for about 10 minutes or until your bacon is done.

*Next time I might add some monterey jack. If you add something to this recipe let me know how it turns out :)

Im still here!

Yes I am still alive! We have had quite the crazy last two weeks. Baby girl has been sick for over a week. We went to the doctor last week and they said it was a sinus infection given to her by me (sorry princess!). She has not been sleeping whatsoever. Like nothing. Every hour waking up. It has been a very long week and half for this mama. If lack of sleep wasnt bad enough, they put her on augmenten which has literally been wreaking havoc on the poor little thing. She has been spitting up very frequently (which she never does) and has had the worst diaper rash. Poor thing cries when she gets her diaper changed :( just absolutely breaks my heart!

However, low and behold she slept a full, continuous 8 HOURS last night! And the diaper rash looks much better today! Thank goodness!! I seriously hope this means she is starting to feel better because this mama starts school on Wednesday. Wish me luck!! Im going to need it... 

Yesterday was the big half birthday for my little angel. I cannot believe it has already been 6 months since she was brought into my life. Words cannot even express how much love I have for that little girl. She is the best part of every day. Sick or not. 

We went to the fair last weekend. Im so behind on my posts but here are some pictures from that little adventure!

Mommy & Baby

Cant forget about frozen cheesecake dipped in chocolate on a stick. Yeah I cheated alot last weekend.

On Sunday I made lasagna and then headed down the street to watch the fair parade. I honestly felt like I was in some country song. Totally different life here in these small towns. Not to mention they have a queen of everything. Horses, dairy, tomatoes, pork. You name it. I feel like a true Ohioan now. Juries still out if thats good or bad.

Hope you all had a great weekend!!

Faith

Crock Pot Pulled Pork

I love a good plate of nachos. Especially if its accompanied by some sporting event and an ice cold beer. I have been looking for different ways to make pork and why not nachos? Except to make this dukan and healthy I declined on the chips and loaded up with crispy iceburg lettuce. And you know what? I didnt even miss the chips. Not to mention your house will smell like heaven while this is cooking. You can thank me later.

Slow Cooker Pulled Pork
Serves 2-4
1 lb Pork Tenderloin
1/2 jar of salsa verde
1 tsp garlic powder
2 tsp chili powder
2 tsp cumin
1 tsp onion powder
salt and pepper

Place the pork in the slow cooker and add the salsa and spices. Let cook on low for 5-7 hours or on high for 4 hours. About 30 min before serving, shred pork with a fork and give it a nice stir. Garnish with chips, or in my case lettuce, ff sour cream, ff cheese, jalapenos. Basically anything that you like on your nachos!

I served the pork on chips for the boyfriend and he had two helpings! Success? Id say so.

*You could use a packet of taco seasoning in place of the separate seasonings if it is easier for you. I just have the spices on hand and the packets usually contain additive